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i am so nervous!

grabe, ganito pala ang feeling pag may dapat kang lagpasan at sa tingin ,o parang dito nakasalalay ang kinabukasan mo. sa thursday and friday na ang board exam ko at sobrang natatakot ako. ayokong gumawa ng history at unang bumagsak sa mga undergrads ng UP! waahhh! sabi nila dapat di na ako nagaaral ngayon pero may 1-2 subjects pa ako na di naaaral! naiiyak na ako...

"Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand." --Isaiah 41:10

natanggap ko yan sa email ko ngayon lang. naiiyak tuoy ako lalo. salamat Lord..

:)

lost my phone po yesterday... :( you can contact me thru landline. i'm onleave till nov5 for the board exam so mostly i'm just at home. call me up ha if you have time! :)

as requested by charm...

Seven things that scare me...

1.  horror movies

2. pag biglang nagbrownout

3. pag nabubuking ng crush habang crush ko pa siya

4. death of someone i love na hindi niya pa nakikilala si Lord

5. dark alleys or roads

6. malaking daga (as in yung kasinglaki na ng tuta!)

7. maging charcoal na walang apoy

Seven things I like the most...
1. sleep

2. hugs

3. flowers

4. be with my loved ones

5. pag close kami ni Lord

6. quality time with friends

7. piktyur piktyur!

Seven important things in my room...
1. my reviewers

2. my winnie unan and kumot (or heart pillow pag nasa probinsiya)

3. my books

4. radio at electric fan

5. my bible and devotional book

6. my closet(?)

 

 

Seven random facts about me...
1. makulit ako pero antisocial.

2. i talk to myself most of the times, face a mirror and imagine a scenario with a certain person, ano yung mga sasabihin niya at kung ano isasagot ko sa kaniya

3. nagdedress up with make up pag nsa bahay. wala lang tapos magmomodel kunwari. hehehe

4. ayoko ng dumudura sa daan o sumisinga ng walang tissue o panyo sa kalye.

5. anemic

6. sobrang transparent. you can see it in my eyes pag asar na ako.

7. iyakin. pati shrek1 iniyakan ko.

Seven things i plan to do before i die

1. have my own family

2. do something that would matter in His eyes

3. baguhin ang image ng librarians sa Pilipinas

4. share to at least 5 people who would later become pastors or missionaries for God

5. witness my family praying ang worshipping God together

6. let go of the emotional and other baggages that hinder me in worshipping God completely

7. completely (as in completely na wala ng galit pag nakikita ko siya) forgive and eventually forget those who've hurt me in the past and eventually be friends with them

Seven things I can do...
1. kaing karpintero pero hindi tumataba

2. write poems when inspired

3. give a hug

4. smile ang laugh out loud

5. see some things in a different angle

6. bluntly tell a person what's wrong when he or she asks but...

7. will just keep quiet when not being asked

Seven things I can't do...
1. eat chesa or macopa

2. dance

3. wear dangling or chandelier earrings

4. not be conscious or nervous when being audited during calls

5. worship nor even lead a prayer when i know na hindi kami okay ni Lord

6. look a person in the eye pag crush ko siya or may tinatago akong secret tungkol sa kaniya

7. pretend i'm comfortable when i'm not, though i try, nahahalata pa rin

Seven things that attract me to the opposite sex...
1. eyes at smile

2. pogi siyempre. hehehe

3. pag mahal niya si Lord at hindi siya nahihiyang ipagsigawan yun

4. honest

5. humble

6. affectionate

7. pag may kamukha siya na importante sa buhay ko

Seven things I say the most...
1. ang kapal!

2. utang na loob!

3. salamat or thank you

4. ayoko na talaga! pramis!(lately lang)

5. bobo calls day!

6. sori TL (lagi ako may atraso sa team leader ko e)

7. thank you for choosing --- internet services, my name is kat, is your dsl number ----------?

Seven celeb crushes...
1. Aga Muhlach

2. Tom Welling

3. Christian Bautista

4. Shane West

5. Paolo Ballesteros

6. Jay-R

7. si Frodo. hehe!

Seven people I want to take this quiz...
1. ate jang

2. kuya gunns

3. rolin

4. abbey

5. dyan

6. xian

7. tsaka si *toot* ;)

nakakatuwa ang linggong ito. nakakatuwa lang talaga.   i love it!

thank you's

thank you to all those who remembered. you don't know how touched i am with your texts and greetings.:) salamt din po sa mga ibang kaibigan ko, okay lang, alam kong mahal niyo ako kahit di niyo ako nabati. ako rin naman do ko matandaan bdays ng iba pero di naman ibig sabihin nun na di ko kayo mahal diba.;D

i feel both happy and sad. happy because God has given me many reasons to celebrate life.  mostly undeserved blessings. grabe lang ang grace ni Lord.

sad because i miss my family so much. i found myself crying a while ago for these 2 reasons. hay, ganito ba talaga pag tumatanda? :D

iniisip ko rin ang mga nagyayari sa akin ngayon. selfassessment. what are my priorities? what did i prioritize after graduation? what should i prioritize and why? am i doing the things that God has called me to do? am i sure of my steps?

and the rating that i could give myself is:  "needs improvement"

i would like to have a longer birthday entry but words fail me. maybe tomorrow. maybe then, everything will be much clearer.

i'm okay, i really am. just need to rethink some things. maybe this what makes this birthday different from the my past birthdays. it's spent in a much quieter way.  just me and my God. i've realized that i'm not really content with God and that i desire more to be with the people i love than to be with my Creator. ang sakit tanggapin noh? pero God has His ways in letting me know how We are doing. He doesn't want our relationship to rely on false emotions. God wants it to be a genuine friendship,relationship. He wants it to be intimate as it should be.

And with a God like that, i couldn't help but cry even more in gratitude of His love.

He is the reason why i'm alive.

 

 

"idleness is the enemy of the soul"

  -st. benedict

  enemy it is... :( 

 

 

 

 

 

 aVaiL TiMe!

lots of avail today so i decided to answer a "FEW" surveys. hehe. i slept from 5:30pm to 2:30 am last night, was just planning to take a lil nap before dinner, watch a lil tv after, ( darna till encantadia..:d) then read the notes and review materials that are slowly piling up to my neck. been trying so hard to take time and study every night for the coming board exam but to no avail. lots of distraction around and sometimes, i'm just too lazy to do it. i'm already on the cataloging part and it really is so boring. grabe! i even almost fell asleep while taking the post exam last sunday. ang baba tuloy ng nakuha ko but i still passed. hehehe. the reviewer was so good, he really knows his stuff but i can't help it, with the aircon,sarap talaga matulog. pero di naman talaga ako natulog nang dirediretso,napaidlip lang. ;D

anyway, one of my best pals in highschool (bob, the nurse, i think some of you have met him already) is already a professional nurse and is currently holding a teaching position in our provincial university. he has been my classmate since prep and seeing him now as a teacher/lecturer, it just makes me so proud of him. was actually teasing him if he could look for a teaching job for me. hehe. for a change. i'm tired of this job. by the way, i'll be on a night shift again starting next week, from 11pm-8am, ot for two days with 2 hours each so that would make it 11pm-10am twice a week. naku, patayan na naman ito. how good they play with our body clocks! good thing is i will be  available for dinner and lunch. hmmm. hehe. common people, let's meet up!:)

 

 

The Keys to Your Heart

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Your French Name is:

Agnès Pelletier

What's Your French Name?

kit-kat-you like to be laid back but active to you
always have to be kept busy or else you whine
dont be like that enjoy the moment!

what candy bar are you?
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Your Hidden Talent

You are both very knowledgeable and creative. You tend to be full of new ideas and potential - big potential. Ideas like yours could change the world, if you build them. As long as you don't stop working on your dreams, you'll get there.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

 

***TEAM STUART aka TEAM PENGUIN***

this is my  team. nice noh? our tL, tL stu, is the one in the middle. just thought of posting our pic. i've spent almost everyday with this people so just want to have a tribute to my team mates, thank you for making workdays happy. :) as with our team name, si TL nag-isip niyan. early birds kasi tawag sa morning shift people at cute daw ang penguin so team penguin kami. is penguin a bird? oo diba? nalito tuloy ako. hehehe. kulit.

the more i get to spend time with this people, the more i miss my friends in UP (esbi, roommates in tita c's and tita vicky's place, college friends) hay.

 i miss you guys... you know who you are. :'(

 

tribute

we've shared tears and laughter
jokes and rantings
stories over fries
and plans over the phone
things i've been missing until now
you're one bestfriend i would have wanted to be with me till the end
but as we both know
some good things never last
sorry for screwing up what could have been an endless friendship
i know you know that it was me who tainted everything
not you
yes, not you
thank you for quietly leaving
though it hurts me to see you
slowly fading away
but i wouldn't have wanted you to leave in another way than you did
though it hurts,  that is where the roads are leading

this is supposed to be a tribute for your birthday
but it turned out to be something else ;)
but i just want you to know (hopefully, but then again..)
that i love you
a little more than platonic
but surely not romantic, slightly deeper i guess
but if God will ask me today
my answer will be the same
if some things will be ironed out
i still wouldn't mind spending the rest of my life with you
but then again, i don't know, God knows best
one thing's for sure
i know that i love you as my friend, my brother, my comrade
and no one can ever replace you in my heart
i'm beginning to like someone now, finally, but not really sure about it
but i wanna i thank you for all the moments we've shared
for the books you've borrowed for me
when they're not available in our own library
and for everything you've done for me

i wish you a happy birthday nad may all your dreams come true
may you find contentment and true happiness
may you find the girl you will marry
and i'll be sincerely happy for you
may you find the purpose of your existence
because only thru it that you will enjoy living.

happy birthday